I love the spiritual community.
I hate the spiritual spin.
Deflecting under a spiritual guise. Blaming soul contracts. Using overly simplified slogans as cop outs – I guess she’s just on her journey … Well, She did the best she could at the time … I’m a Pisces, what can I do about it? … It’s written in the stars.
The awkwardness that comes from such a passive release of responsibility makes me cringe. But that’s probably just my ego trying to maintain control. Really? When are we going to move beyond blaming our egos and shadow sides?
Maybe it was just you. Maybe you made that choice. Not your ego. Not your shadow side. Maybe it was you who decided to do that. Maybe you enjoyed it. Maybe that’s OK.
Then again, that’s probably just my ego saying that or my traumatized inner-child.
My inner-child – I can’t even go there. I’m done fracturing myself into ages. Done defining myself by chronological traumas. Thirteen-year-old Billy, is nine-year-old Billy, is the Billy typing this blog. We are one in the same. No more pitting all my parts against each other.
Sometimes I want to grab a bliss bunny by the shoulders and scream, “Letting Go before processing isn’t self-empowerment, it’s self-avoidance!”
Cards. Charts. Gurus. None of these possess the answer(s). They’re powerful tools. When used correctly they provide new prospectives, reveal connections beyond this realm, fill in blanks, and offer confirmation – usually to things you already knew. But the only thing I know, is that I know nothing.
OK. Then I guess that’s your Truth.
And for me that’s what spirituality is all about – living your Truth.
At least that’s how I’m spinning it.